Just something I wrote, for someone that needs to know....... Even though it doesn't apply to me personally, it doesn't mean I don't understand it less.
We all have had heartache,
we all have been through it,
no ones immune to it.
Been there done it,
Could not
would not
change it at all,
We all have had heartache,
we all have been through it,
No ones immune to it,
Just live it,
Just learn it,
Move to it,
Move from it,
We all have had heartache,
we all have been through it,
No ones immune to it,
Leave it,
believe it,
ignore it,
adore it,
We all have had heartache,
we all have been through it,
No ones immune to it,
Written by Carolyn R Tracy Copyrighted 2011
Friday, December 30, 2011
NEW YEARS PARTY.......wait...... NOT REALLY, I am a mommy for crying out loud HA !
Can mommies still party while having children? Well yes I believe they can, just not like they use to is all, it has to be more controlled. Be sure to have your children under proper care, and go out and have controlled fun. It is still a party, but with more thought about what you do and how much you drink.
Life isn't over just because you had kids, or family, it has just begun and thus a reason to celebrate the New Year, Now this doesn't ok, going out and partying every single night, nor condone it in any way. But I still believe mommies can go out drinking on a limited basics only. Holidays, and maybe far and few in between days/nights. As long as it is responsible and well thought out. I am not a drinker or partier, but sometimes I to feel the need for a drink here and there. Not all the time I think the last time I drank was several years ago in 2003-2004. WOW a long time ago. Sure I have had a sip of wine here and there in a blue moon since then but nothing more then that.
My children are well grown now into their teen years, and have their own time and place and friends to hang out with, they don't need me around all the time now, Even though I am a very protective mom. I to need to have fun, if I do go out I know I don't have to drink to have a good time, I also know if I choose to drink I will do it responsibly as my children really do not need to see me come home drunk off my butt.
So this New Years MOM go out have fun drink if you feel like it, (as long as your not prego). Have a suitable babysitter, have a suitable driver or call a cab, and most of all.. ENJOY yourself but responsibly..... HAVE FUN HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU AND ALL MY FANS!
Life isn't over just because you had kids, or family, it has just begun and thus a reason to celebrate the New Year, Now this doesn't ok, going out and partying every single night, nor condone it in any way. But I still believe mommies can go out drinking on a limited basics only. Holidays, and maybe far and few in between days/nights. As long as it is responsible and well thought out. I am not a drinker or partier, but sometimes I to feel the need for a drink here and there. Not all the time I think the last time I drank was several years ago in 2003-2004. WOW a long time ago. Sure I have had a sip of wine here and there in a blue moon since then but nothing more then that.
My children are well grown now into their teen years, and have their own time and place and friends to hang out with, they don't need me around all the time now, Even though I am a very protective mom. I to need to have fun, if I do go out I know I don't have to drink to have a good time, I also know if I choose to drink I will do it responsibly as my children really do not need to see me come home drunk off my butt.
So this New Years MOM go out have fun drink if you feel like it, (as long as your not prego). Have a suitable babysitter, have a suitable driver or call a cab, and most of all.. ENJOY yourself but responsibly..... HAVE FUN HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU AND ALL MY FANS!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Another Day another dollar that is what they say anyway!
Been off for that last three days, it was nice, spending it with the kids and husband and a few other peoples. My holiday went well, lets hope New Years goes just as well. So many things to do not enough time to do it in. Well that is another saying that is lived up to be true.
Heading to work in a few moments, what a wonderful time. Time is money I am just full of quotes today aren't I. Well to each their own I suppose,However work defines me and lets me express myself to others, and help where I am needed most. Though still going through school and keeping up with my studies, I am still alright to smile and enjoy my self as much as possible.
I know there is a lot of people out there in need, and I keep them in my hearts and in my prayers. I pray often and give my worries to him to help me solve, in the end everything works out for the best. Answers are there just have to be patience to seek them out, or they just take time to mull them over for others as well. Then the answer comes, do you give thanks to whom it is that helped you with those answers I do. I know with out the good lord in my life a lot of my worries would go unsolved and answers unknown to me.
Please remember be thankful for what you have others may not have what you have, be thankful for your life and that of what you have. Others are not as lucky to have so much. They would be happy just to not have to worry about where their next meal is coming from. I pay my bills faithfully, I thank god more and more each day for the life he gave me and the lives he gave me to care for. He is our lord and he is above all the one who has the answers, but for him to, it takes time to sift through them all to get to the right one for you that is needed. Be patience with him your one of Billions he has to look after..... Sending lots of love to you and your this season,.
Heading to work in a few moments, what a wonderful time. Time is money I am just full of quotes today aren't I. Well to each their own I suppose,However work defines me and lets me express myself to others, and help where I am needed most. Though still going through school and keeping up with my studies, I am still alright to smile and enjoy my self as much as possible.
I know there is a lot of people out there in need, and I keep them in my hearts and in my prayers. I pray often and give my worries to him to help me solve, in the end everything works out for the best. Answers are there just have to be patience to seek them out, or they just take time to mull them over for others as well. Then the answer comes, do you give thanks to whom it is that helped you with those answers I do. I know with out the good lord in my life a lot of my worries would go unsolved and answers unknown to me.
Please remember be thankful for what you have others may not have what you have, be thankful for your life and that of what you have. Others are not as lucky to have so much. They would be happy just to not have to worry about where their next meal is coming from. I pay my bills faithfully, I thank god more and more each day for the life he gave me and the lives he gave me to care for. He is our lord and he is above all the one who has the answers, but for him to, it takes time to sift through them all to get to the right one for you that is needed. Be patience with him your one of Billions he has to look after..... Sending lots of love to you and your this season,.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
So great Christmas, Spent with family and friends, and someone We have not seen for a long time!
Yes, it was a great Christmas, lots of food, laughs, movies and of course gifts.
Loved them all, I got here is the list he he he he,
1. A T-shirt- with my nephew and me, I was making a weird face as I was pushing my glasses up on my nose with out hands, cause I was holding him on the carousel at the fair. Awesome (here is the pic btw)
Picture takin in 2009!
2. A T-Shirt- With the saying- I am the (nephews name) Auntie!Awesome
3. Wii Draw- whoot gonna love that to!
4. Poison Perfume- From my husband, this is not the cheapo stuff I usually buy and haven't even bought in along time as I can not find it, This is the expensive kind, and we both love the smell of it on me! Its my Favorite perfume of all time.
Then of course we were able to visit with someone for who we haven't been with for a very long time. It was wonderful catching up, and getting updated of news between families and such. But mostly we just enjoyed the day and the time spent together. We will miss you until the next time we get to see you. Sending lots of love on your Journey and you will always be in our hearts and minds. Love you lots! NEVER FORGET THAT.......
Loved them all, I got here is the list he he he he,
1. A T-shirt- with my nephew and me, I was making a weird face as I was pushing my glasses up on my nose with out hands, cause I was holding him on the carousel at the fair. Awesome (here is the pic btw)
2. A T-Shirt- With the saying- I am the (nephews name) Auntie!Awesome
3. Wii Draw- whoot gonna love that to!
4. Poison Perfume- From my husband, this is not the cheapo stuff I usually buy and haven't even bought in along time as I can not find it, This is the expensive kind, and we both love the smell of it on me! Its my Favorite perfume of all time.
Then of course we were able to visit with someone for who we haven't been with for a very long time. It was wonderful catching up, and getting updated of news between families and such. But mostly we just enjoyed the day and the time spent together. We will miss you until the next time we get to see you. Sending lots of love on your Journey and you will always be in our hearts and minds. Love you lots! NEVER FORGET THAT.......
Saturday, December 24, 2011
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and all of yours this Holiday(s) Season.
Just a quick note before we get into the Holiday Seasons, I want to wish everyone out there on the net where ever you may be, and those who are not on the net as well, a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, Drive Safe, be Safe, and above all enjoy!
Family and friends of young and old, time is flying by us without a blink of an eye! One day its the first of the years, the next we look again and we are back at the first of the year before we know it, The years are going by faster then ever. I ll shake my head because I feel i just blinked and a whole year went by with out me even knowing it... at least that is what it feels like.
I don't want to spend to much time on here today as today it is a day to celebrate the birth of Christ and to spend time with our family and friends, this being said once again To you and yours please be safe, and lots of fun giving and receiving. But most of all do not forget why we are celebrating at all..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!
Family and friends of young and old, time is flying by us without a blink of an eye! One day its the first of the years, the next we look again and we are back at the first of the year before we know it, The years are going by faster then ever. I ll shake my head because I feel i just blinked and a whole year went by with out me even knowing it... at least that is what it feels like.
I don't want to spend to much time on here today as today it is a day to celebrate the birth of Christ and to spend time with our family and friends, this being said once again To you and yours please be safe, and lots of fun giving and receiving. But most of all do not forget why we are celebrating at all..
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
So, what da ya say to that?
Ok, So if you do not like what I write, don't read it, If you do not like what you see, don't look at it, If you do not like what ya hear then do not listen to it. It is that simple am I right or am I right. I have many of fans that come and read my blog every single day. For the most part everyone enjoys reading, seeing, and above all hearing about what I write. I haven't had any complaints yet and the last time I checked we still live in a country of freedom, free will, and the right to your own opinion.
I only write this because I felt the need to, maybe express myself to some. No body has approached me or have said anything to me. But I feel sometimes there is a need to speak your mind and this I chose to speak about, I think there are many people out there that feel they have the right to decide for you what you should or should not do, say, write, or whatever. However that is not up to them to decide now is it?
I believe that if it makes you feel good do it, if it makes you full of regret later then do not do it. Which most of us have a little voice in our heads that tell us what feels right and what feels wrong and the voice usually tells you if it feels wrong or it feels right. However there are some out there that either choose not to listen to that voice or just does not have one at all. It is also known as your conscience.
So I say, if you don't like this blog or what I write, say or whatever there is no further need for you to come here, to spy or to try to get something your not going to get am I right. If there isn't something I want the world to know about I certainly would not write it on the internet so all could read it lol. I only write and give info on what I would share with everyone. If I wouldn't share it then it won't be on here lol.
Here is some advice, People don't let others stand in your way of writing saying or doing the things you love to do. Don't let others push you away from those that you love. Above all don't let them destroy you and the things around you. You are your own person, that means you have free will and that can not and never should be taken away from you!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
I only write this because I felt the need to, maybe express myself to some. No body has approached me or have said anything to me. But I feel sometimes there is a need to speak your mind and this I chose to speak about, I think there are many people out there that feel they have the right to decide for you what you should or should not do, say, write, or whatever. However that is not up to them to decide now is it?
I believe that if it makes you feel good do it, if it makes you full of regret later then do not do it. Which most of us have a little voice in our heads that tell us what feels right and what feels wrong and the voice usually tells you if it feels wrong or it feels right. However there are some out there that either choose not to listen to that voice or just does not have one at all. It is also known as your conscience.
So I say, if you don't like this blog or what I write, say or whatever there is no further need for you to come here, to spy or to try to get something your not going to get am I right. If there isn't something I want the world to know about I certainly would not write it on the internet so all could read it lol. I only write and give info on what I would share with everyone. If I wouldn't share it then it won't be on here lol.
Here is some advice, People don't let others stand in your way of writing saying or doing the things you love to do. Don't let others push you away from those that you love. Above all don't let them destroy you and the things around you. You are your own person, that means you have free will and that can not and never should be taken away from you!
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
Christmas Party went off with a bang! WOW what fun we had! Pics included.
So we got there, and ate pizza, and had rice crispy treats, brownies, and Ritz crackers with dip, etc etc: Great foods to eat, great games to play. We played the Alphabet game where everyone gets two sheets of paper with the Alphabet written on them, then you get into even groups of people, about 4 groups depending on how big your party is, and then you have to look for things or think of things that are in the building that starts with the letter, the group with the most words wins the game. Then we played a Reindeer game which was really fun and funny at the same time.
Then we of course exchanged gifts only made a game out that, someone picks a gift, then move to the next person that next person can choose a new gift or steal the gift from anyone who has already chosen a gift. Which was fun, but also kind of sad at the same time. LOL Great gifts all of them were, just some people had their hearts on the gift they had picked and well got it stolen .... so yes sad.... lol. Any way the party lasted a couple hours and then slowly everyone either made their way out the door, or like myself and kids helped clean a bit then made our way to the door, It was great fun and many pictures taken here are just a few ...... Enjoy!
Just had to add my angel cake butter milk biscuit since everyone else was in this !
Then we of course exchanged gifts only made a game out that, someone picks a gift, then move to the next person that next person can choose a new gift or steal the gift from anyone who has already chosen a gift. Which was fun, but also kind of sad at the same time. LOL Great gifts all of them were, just some people had their hearts on the gift they had picked and well got it stolen .... so yes sad.... lol. Any way the party lasted a couple hours and then slowly everyone either made their way out the door, or like myself and kids helped clean a bit then made our way to the door, It was great fun and many pictures taken here are just a few ...... Enjoy!
Monday, December 19, 2011
Christmas party tonight Whoot,
So yes it's the Christmas party at work, good thing My eldest works with me cause I won't have to go alone. Then also my youngest is going just to join in the fun and games we will have how lucky she is huh? So yes there will be pictures as I am taking my camera with me to the party. Lots and lots of pictures that I will share with all of you.
Christmas time is here, this weekend we will all be eating our favorite dinners, Mine includes Turkey, potatoes, gravy, cranberry non pitted, stuffing, Hopefully some ham with pineapple, etc: We all have our favs, but old fashion and common is for me lol.
Remembering the days of old when all the family members would come over in a small house and cram together and laugh and visit.... it was always a blast. Now however getting that family party going is impossible, those that started the party are long gone dead and greatly missed. Those that are still alive and kicking act as those they are already dead, by just being per lazy lol. Thankfully though we do have my brother here, and bringing up my mother for Christmas is a joy, as she was here for thanksgiving as well. So it will be fun non the less.
Whatever your plans are for this Christmas, please be careful, and enjoy yourselves... but most of all do not forget the true meaning behind the season.... For with out Christ there would be no Christmas to enjoy.
Christmas time is here, this weekend we will all be eating our favorite dinners, Mine includes Turkey, potatoes, gravy, cranberry non pitted, stuffing, Hopefully some ham with pineapple, etc: We all have our favs, but old fashion and common is for me lol.
Remembering the days of old when all the family members would come over in a small house and cram together and laugh and visit.... it was always a blast. Now however getting that family party going is impossible, those that started the party are long gone dead and greatly missed. Those that are still alive and kicking act as those they are already dead, by just being per lazy lol. Thankfully though we do have my brother here, and bringing up my mother for Christmas is a joy, as she was here for thanksgiving as well. So it will be fun non the less.
Whatever your plans are for this Christmas, please be careful, and enjoy yourselves... but most of all do not forget the true meaning behind the season.... For with out Christ there would be no Christmas to enjoy.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
So my daughter has a allergic reaction to laundry soap.
I have known since she was little that she can only use certain laundry soaps, and well, I had to go to a different store, and get different soap this time and used it, and well she developed a harsh rash all over her body, now I am in the process of trying to rid her clothes of the nasty stuff, and hopefully get her all better,quickly. I hate to have my children in such irritated pain.
Well just goes to show if something works, don't change it no matter the cost, I have learned a valuable lesson in this, I ll spend the extra money just to keep my child safe from this irritated issue. golly Gee Molly this sucks!......
Well just goes to show if something works, don't change it no matter the cost, I have learned a valuable lesson in this, I ll spend the extra money just to keep my child safe from this irritated issue. golly Gee Molly this sucks!......
Friday, December 16, 2011
Kind of tired tonight, Kids are out and about, mom and dad went out on a date!
It is nice when the kids are old enough to go do their own thing, may it be work, or a B - Day party that they go to, skating or just out with friends, which leaves mom and dad at home to fend for themselves. That is alright in my book however, as the kids get older mom and dad find themselves able to spend more time together alone. As such happened tonight as my husband dropped our children off to their need to go places, we (he and I ) went out and had a nice supper together alone at Royal Forks, and walked around the mall for a few hours, it was nice just him and I then went home and spent some one on one time together.
Though I do miss the pitter patter of little feet running around the house I do feel my time at having babies have long past. Which I am alright with to, As my nephew and nieces feel my world up enough. I miss my kids, but glad they are growing up and starting to live their lives getting ready to move on and out. I am in no hurry to see them go, I do have to say. However it is nice to have a night with your husband/wife all to yourself.
So what are my plans when the kids move out, Not really sure, though I am sure of one thing I won't have a problem finding things to do. If nothing else I ll go to their house and bother them HA HA HA! Kids are a joy in my life they are and without them there would be no future. We have to teach them the rights and the wrongs as much as we can, other then that life is a trail by error and or as once was said by the Dream works movie, El Dorado "To Error is Human". That is what our kids must learn on their own in their own time. GOD BLESS our children past, present, and the future.
Though I do miss the pitter patter of little feet running around the house I do feel my time at having babies have long past. Which I am alright with to, As my nephew and nieces feel my world up enough. I miss my kids, but glad they are growing up and starting to live their lives getting ready to move on and out. I am in no hurry to see them go, I do have to say. However it is nice to have a night with your husband/wife all to yourself.
So what are my plans when the kids move out, Not really sure, though I am sure of one thing I won't have a problem finding things to do. If nothing else I ll go to their house and bother them HA HA HA! Kids are a joy in my life they are and without them there would be no future. We have to teach them the rights and the wrongs as much as we can, other then that life is a trail by error and or as once was said by the Dream works movie, El Dorado "To Error is Human". That is what our kids must learn on their own in their own time. GOD BLESS our children past, present, and the future.
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Husband gives me new wedding ring, what a goofy man I love and married Ha!
So sitting at the school waiting for my oldest to come out, to take her home my husband and I sitting in the car listening to cheap trick, (awesome band btw). He looks over at me, and smiles and I smile back he grabs my left hand and says I love you, and then proceeds to tell me he wants to give me a new wedding ring, I told him I don't need a new one I have one thank you as I try to pull my hand away, he grasps it just hard enough for me not to pull away, and then places on my wedding ring finger , One of those small little black rubber bands, and he says there is your new ring, don't say I never get you anything as he laughs...
He is just to cute, and funny to get upset, as I knew it was a funny he was trying to pull anyway, but He still had the romance in his voice and in his heart, as he did all this in the car, and then leans over and gives me a kiss. AHHHH how sweet huh?
He is just to cute, and funny to get upset, as I knew it was a funny he was trying to pull anyway, but He still had the romance in his voice and in his heart, as he did all this in the car, and then leans over and gives me a kiss. AHHHH how sweet huh?
Christmas and bah humbug! lol
Many years past we (my family) have had those Christmas times where we were not sure if we would even have one gift under the tree for our girls. However this not being the case for us, there are many out there that are in that same spot we once were in. I feel badly that there our children out there that won't know what it is to give to each other, and others as well. Most of all I feel that the true meaning of Christmas has been lost. More and more each year I see more about Santa and gifts then I do about Jesus and his Birthday. I don't see parents explaining to their children the real reason behind the celebration of Christmas.
With the schools, taking God/Jesus out of our schools, and trying to take Christ out of Christmas. Sorry but without Christ then there is no Christmas. For that is the whole reason why we even have Christmas am I so wrong to think that way? Those who do not want Christ or the word Christmas then should make a new holiday just for themselves. Why should we Christians be the ones to suffer a loss so great, when all other religions get to practice in our schools and other places their beliefs.
We are a great people, who once stood up for our rights, now I feel we are a people who cowardly stand in a dark corner allowing others to decide what we should or shouldn't do..... I am not sure but the world that we live in now is not the world I so hold dear to anymore. There was a time where people in Tie Dye shirts, and long hair stood with signs and let the world know that what was right was right and what was wrong was wrong and those people made the difference, now however, there are far and few between who would not even look you in the eye to defend their rights or beliefs, they would rather look away and hope someone else did the hard work... Where are we going, from here?
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Women, Why get a Restraining order/Protection Order if all YOUR going to do is use it against him and then HARASS HIM?
I don't think I need to go into any further detail with this one, I was asked to place this on my blog, as I did. Here are a few links that may help men in the future to stay away from women with Psychotic behaviors. Man I only wish we would of found this earlier like maybe 15 years ago.....
They may not look linked but they most certainly are just click on the below links to go to sites:
They may not look linked but they most certainly are just click on the below links to go to sites:
Dealing with Harassment by Psychotic Individuals
Danger Signs to watch out for in Women
Don't Let Hatred Consume You
These Links above are a reference from a site I think is the most accurate in describing the different kinds of Psycotic behavior that different woman may have, some women may even have some if not all of the examples given, however their are some examples not listed either, however the true nature of this blog is to get people to realize it is just not men that are abusive and or psychotic, More these days we find that more and more women are the troublesome psychotics we so do not need in our lives.
People open your eyes, families who have a relative that may have these problems PLEASE seek help for your loved one before she or even he gets worse and ends up hurting someone or themselves, in a way that is not just or appropriate.
I speak from experience with dealing with such a woman that was brought into our family by marriage. It sucks and its a crappy thing but if you let it effect you it will drive you insane, you must not let it effect your world, your life, your mind!
Tuna Casserole Say What?!
ok for years I wanted to make a tuna casserole, that my dad made since we were kids it was always good, and I had been craving it for well actually years. So I decided to try my hand in it. Its not that I thought I couldn't make it, it was that I wasn't sure of the ingredients fully. However I was able to obtain it tonight from my husbands mom, and she was very happy to give me the recipe, which so happens to be the same one my dad used. Whoot that made my day!
So I go to the store, and grab the stuff bring it home cook the noodles and then mix it up, then pop it in the oven for 30 mins to 45 mins depending on how crisp you want your crackers. at 300 to 350 degrees. Here is the picture of it, only disappointment was that my crackers didn't get browned as much if at all as I wanted them... That is ok, it is called trail and error for a reason.
Sorry picture isn't clear as I was in a hurry to eat and well I also used my cell phone lol how funny of me.
So I go to the store, and grab the stuff bring it home cook the noodles and then mix it up, then pop it in the oven for 30 mins to 45 mins depending on how crisp you want your crackers. at 300 to 350 degrees. Here is the picture of it, only disappointment was that my crackers didn't get browned as much if at all as I wanted them... That is ok, it is called trail and error for a reason.
Sorry picture isn't clear as I was in a hurry to eat and well I also used my cell phone lol how funny of me.
Monday, December 12, 2011
Been Sick this week, Not a fun time, WOW!
WOW, is all I have to say stomach flu, maybe. I am not even sure myself, it hit fast and furious, and a all weekend process. Still feel a little uneasy today myself, however feel better then I had all weekend. Family got it first, my little angel cake, then daughters friend, then daughter, then brother, I was next then his girl friend. Didn't think I would get it but that was when I got it. Just horrible that is all I have to say.
When you are sitting going one way then suddenly have to turn and go the other way, not a fun time at all. What do you do in a time like that, they call it sometimes praying to the porcelain GOD, well let me tell you I was for sure doing that I never had to in all my life until this weekend. It was a nightmare I wish on no one, and no one should ever wish it on anyone for enough was enough.
Drink plenty of water even if it won't stay down, as you will get dehydrated quickly and get even more sick. Chicken noodle soup that is about all after a few hours and water is all you can keep down.
could never understand that either why feed yourself chicken noodle soup? It never seemed to do anything not even feel you up. However I found that in this case, my stomach didn't want anything in it, but if I put the soup in it, it settled it a bit. 7up or sprite yes that helped to, but nothing other then that would I dare place in to my belly.
If anyone ever gets this flu bug, just remember after the second puck you seem to feel much better and are able to keep stuff down. After that it gets better slowly, so move the same, in slow motion and just sleep it off with fresh water near you to drink, you would think you were in a dessert with out water for days that is how thirsty you will seem. Just don't drink it though sip it slowly, and add more little by little seemed to me the faster I drank and the more of it at one time is what made me blow.
Again I repeat not a fun time at all.
When you are sitting going one way then suddenly have to turn and go the other way, not a fun time at all. What do you do in a time like that, they call it sometimes praying to the porcelain GOD, well let me tell you I was for sure doing that I never had to in all my life until this weekend. It was a nightmare I wish on no one, and no one should ever wish it on anyone for enough was enough.
Drink plenty of water even if it won't stay down, as you will get dehydrated quickly and get even more sick. Chicken noodle soup that is about all after a few hours and water is all you can keep down.
could never understand that either why feed yourself chicken noodle soup? It never seemed to do anything not even feel you up. However I found that in this case, my stomach didn't want anything in it, but if I put the soup in it, it settled it a bit. 7up or sprite yes that helped to, but nothing other then that would I dare place in to my belly.
If anyone ever gets this flu bug, just remember after the second puck you seem to feel much better and are able to keep stuff down. After that it gets better slowly, so move the same, in slow motion and just sleep it off with fresh water near you to drink, you would think you were in a dessert with out water for days that is how thirsty you will seem. Just don't drink it though sip it slowly, and add more little by little seemed to me the faster I drank and the more of it at one time is what made me blow.
Again I repeat not a fun time at all.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Dressed for work, ready to go, ........ not wanting to go out!
Yes I am dressed for work, in my three shirts again, as I do not like wearing a coat as I have to hang it up. Reason is I don't like taking it to work because I hate leaving personal items in the open for all to see or go through. To many times in my life have I had stuff taken from work when I leave it hanging or what not. Of course I am not accusing and of my fellow co- workers of stealing, its just a pass issue I have learned from and will not put myself through again. Thus I do not bring my coat to work. I leave all personal belongings in my car.
It is cold again outside my warm cozy house, and a short drive to work. Sun is shining so I can not complain to much. However its getting out of the house and just getting the get go to do so. Bills to pay and mouths to feed..... what a day, I love my kids and my husband, and life could not be better for me right now... well it could but I can not complain, as there are much worse things that could be going on that are not, thankfully to the lord they are not.
Four more days until I see the husband, what a joy he will be home again. Though he just left he is miles away, and I feel every mile that he slips further away. When he comes back I can feel the miles bringing us closer, the words on my way home are all I want to hear from him. The kids and I miss him dearly when he is gone, the truckers life we lead. It is a hard life, but so is the military and I am thankful he is out of that as the days could turn into months and months into years. I feel for our family friends and strangers who deal with this on a daily basics just know there is someone out here, praying and wishing for you all.
Work is calling it is almost that time for me to walk out that door, to lock it behind me and leave the warmth behind to, knowing that I ll be working and though in a building it is still really cold, working the drive window most likely, love it but it brings that cold wind in and goes straight for your bones and sends the chills up your spine. I ll be glad to get back in bed tonight and snuggle deep down to sleep just like a bear in its cave.
Wishing you all a good day, and evening and until I write again..... Christmas is right around the corner, hope it is all good for everyone this year. Sending love and wishes your way!
It is cold again outside my warm cozy house, and a short drive to work. Sun is shining so I can not complain to much. However its getting out of the house and just getting the get go to do so. Bills to pay and mouths to feed..... what a day, I love my kids and my husband, and life could not be better for me right now... well it could but I can not complain, as there are much worse things that could be going on that are not, thankfully to the lord they are not.
Four more days until I see the husband, what a joy he will be home again. Though he just left he is miles away, and I feel every mile that he slips further away. When he comes back I can feel the miles bringing us closer, the words on my way home are all I want to hear from him. The kids and I miss him dearly when he is gone, the truckers life we lead. It is a hard life, but so is the military and I am thankful he is out of that as the days could turn into months and months into years. I feel for our family friends and strangers who deal with this on a daily basics just know there is someone out here, praying and wishing for you all.
Work is calling it is almost that time for me to walk out that door, to lock it behind me and leave the warmth behind to, knowing that I ll be working and though in a building it is still really cold, working the drive window most likely, love it but it brings that cold wind in and goes straight for your bones and sends the chills up your spine. I ll be glad to get back in bed tonight and snuggle deep down to sleep just like a bear in its cave.
Wishing you all a good day, and evening and until I write again..... Christmas is right around the corner, hope it is all good for everyone this year. Sending love and wishes your way!
Monday, December 5, 2011
So It Snows!
With three layers of shirts on, and heat blowing strong, I still find myself cold, not as bad as it usually would be, but still cold. As the snow falls outside, I seem to dread the forever winter that is here. Though we have been lucky enough to get by with out snow this long, I can not help but still dread the cold winter that is here.
There is so much I want to do outside yet, but the ground freezes as I write. With no more then a blink of an eye I find myself stuck in my house. Going to work, coming home and working some more. Hope this winter goes by quickly to bring back the warm sunny weather of spring and summer. That dreadful winter always seems to just show up out of no where.
I do find this time memorable however, though the memories not all that good, Grandpa was lost Dec 4 1994. Grandma lost on Nov 20 1998. Of course the good memories are that I had my eldest in 94 and grandpa got to see her before he passed on, and of course a good memory of my youngest being born in 98 before grandma past and she got see her. So with the bad there is always a light at the end of the tunnel right. Still doesn't make me like winter anymore then usual.
I ll get through it I always do, I ll find things to do, like scrapbook, or sewing, maybe a little work on the Graphic art, or web design who knows, what will come this year in this cold season lets hope for good, and lets hope for lots of warmth in the process. Happy Winter all, it is finally here.
There is so much I want to do outside yet, but the ground freezes as I write. With no more then a blink of an eye I find myself stuck in my house. Going to work, coming home and working some more. Hope this winter goes by quickly to bring back the warm sunny weather of spring and summer. That dreadful winter always seems to just show up out of no where.
I do find this time memorable however, though the memories not all that good, Grandpa was lost Dec 4 1994. Grandma lost on Nov 20 1998. Of course the good memories are that I had my eldest in 94 and grandpa got to see her before he passed on, and of course a good memory of my youngest being born in 98 before grandma past and she got see her. So with the bad there is always a light at the end of the tunnel right. Still doesn't make me like winter anymore then usual.
I ll get through it I always do, I ll find things to do, like scrapbook, or sewing, maybe a little work on the Graphic art, or web design who knows, what will come this year in this cold season lets hope for good, and lets hope for lots of warmth in the process. Happy Winter all, it is finally here.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Reminders from our past, Reminders of our present, Reminders of our future!
Your song played today, the memories of what was came rolling in, tears fell from my eyes, as I replayed those short but fun moments we once had. You teaching me to dance, I hiding in the corner trying to do the twist. Grandpa laughing in his chair.
I was dusting your many Nic Nac's (some I still have for myself), you washing the walls, and singing to the tune, wiggling on the chair you were standing on. Those long walks we use to take, they now seem like they were way to short. The nights we stayed up listening to MTV and VH1, or you getting up in the mornings to drink your coffee, and find I hadn't moved from my spot and could not believe I had not even fallen asleep yet.
Yes your song played today, and the tears rolled on down my face, I did not try to stop them as that would do no good, I let them roll off my face into my hands, I looked at my hands and realized there I held you ….. Those tears, that emotion, you still live with in me, through my joy, my sadness, and most of all in my heart, Mind and soul. Your not forgotten, nor misplaced, through my eyes you see my life, my dreams, my family.
Your song played today, it was meant to be, It was you reminding me that you are still so very near.
Grandma dear please know I love you so and that I would never let you go.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Are you the puppet master or the puppet?
Are you the puppet master or the puppet?
Some point in our lives we all ask the same question. Am I the puppet master or am I the puppet? Though we have asked ourselves this time an again. We have never really answered it. I feel that I may in some form have the answer though it may not be the one your looking for.
I believe strongly that the puppet masters and the puppets of the world are of equal number. What does this mean you ask? Well I am glad you asked that, because this is what I believe.
The world is divided in half one half, puppet masters, the other half, puppets. There are those that want to and need to be the puppet. Then there are the ones that want, need and force themselves to be the puppet master.
Those that are the puppets choose to be the puppets. These people are easily controlled, and Manipulated in to doing or saying anything their master tells them to do. Also known as followers.
Then there is the puppet master. Some people are natural puppet masters. Not intentional puppet masters are good people. They look after others protect them love them and most of all give their puppets support. These kinds of puppet masters do not have an evil bone in their body. Could not hurt their puppets or hurt their friends and family.
Then there is the puppet master that is evil. Forces their way into their puppets life. Controlling their puppet and who that puppet can see, talk to, where that puppet can go. Even speaks selfishly about and for the puppet. The poor puppet doesn’t know if he is coming or going.
However that puppet chose to be there, to have that puppet master. That puppet, chose to be the puppet. Though the puppet thinks there is no escape.
These evil puppet masters, they are the meanest. They sometimes suffer from mental issues, Emotional baggage they can not cope with. Sometimes the Puppet master can not focus on anything else but controlling, searching for others to control, spying on their puppets. Only because of the fear they feel inside the insecurity that they have in themselves.
They are scared puppet masters. They can’t change they won’t change. So they don’t have to focus on their own troubles and problems they’ll focus on other people to try to puppeteer,to control.
Thus the puppet master will live a long lonely life. With out heart with out true love.
When you choose the puppet master role. You chose to live with people that are in fear, or hatred for you.The puppet master always lives in fear of their puppets leaving them. The puppet master fears abandonment issues. So the puppet master will go to great lengths, to keep their puppets under their control. Isolating them from all that is around them.
One day though the puppet will come to realize that this master is not what they want. Nor need in their lives. The puppet will break free, once it figures out when and how to. For a puppet always finds that they do indeed have a choice to be there or not. Once this happens the puppet master will go ballistic. In a rage of anger, hurt and sorrow for the loss of their puppet.
Little to the knowledge of the puppet master, Many of the puppets aren’t as controlled as the puppet master thinks.
Most of the puppets do not care about the puppet master, but care about the other puppets involved. So the poor puppet stays until there is a way that all the puppets can escape together.
I for one know I am not a puppet in the claws of a puppet master. I was once in the claws of the cruelest puppet master of all. I escaped with all I had, my life my family. I have found new life, new joys and happiness to search out. I no longer need a puppet master. I am the puppet master of my own life now.
I choose to be the puppet master. A kind helpful loving together puppet master. I have a full plate to worry about of my own. I have no time nor energy to control puppets. I lead if they follow they do it on their own choice. They are glad to follow to.
My life as been better since I kicked the puppet master to the curb. Now the puppet master is irate, still full of blame and hatred for my choice to leave.
Yet the puppet master still tries to bare hold on me. Then quickly realizes that it is a game that the puppet master will lose.
I sit and watch from the side lines. The puppet master still in all its might tries to control me. Yet knows there is no way to grasp me like before. There is nothing the puppet master can do to me. I have the control of my life.
I ignore the puppet master that once had hold of me. For now as I have said I am my own puppet master. I am untouchable, Unreadable, unpredictable. This the puppet master feared Thus the puppet master lost.
By C.T 2009
Some point in our lives we all ask the same question. Am I the puppet master or am I the puppet? Though we have asked ourselves this time an again. We have never really answered it. I feel that I may in some form have the answer though it may not be the one your looking for.
I believe strongly that the puppet masters and the puppets of the world are of equal number. What does this mean you ask? Well I am glad you asked that, because this is what I believe.
The world is divided in half one half, puppet masters, the other half, puppets. There are those that want to and need to be the puppet. Then there are the ones that want, need and force themselves to be the puppet master.
Those that are the puppets choose to be the puppets. These people are easily controlled, and Manipulated in to doing or saying anything their master tells them to do. Also known as followers.
Then there is the puppet master. Some people are natural puppet masters. Not intentional puppet masters are good people. They look after others protect them love them and most of all give their puppets support. These kinds of puppet masters do not have an evil bone in their body. Could not hurt their puppets or hurt their friends and family.
Then there is the puppet master that is evil. Forces their way into their puppets life. Controlling their puppet and who that puppet can see, talk to, where that puppet can go. Even speaks selfishly about and for the puppet. The poor puppet doesn’t know if he is coming or going.
However that puppet chose to be there, to have that puppet master. That puppet, chose to be the puppet. Though the puppet thinks there is no escape.
These evil puppet masters, they are the meanest. They sometimes suffer from mental issues, Emotional baggage they can not cope with. Sometimes the Puppet master can not focus on anything else but controlling, searching for others to control, spying on their puppets. Only because of the fear they feel inside the insecurity that they have in themselves.
They are scared puppet masters. They can’t change they won’t change. So they don’t have to focus on their own troubles and problems they’ll focus on other people to try to puppeteer,to control.
Thus the puppet master will live a long lonely life. With out heart with out true love.
When you choose the puppet master role. You chose to live with people that are in fear, or hatred for you.The puppet master always lives in fear of their puppets leaving them. The puppet master fears abandonment issues. So the puppet master will go to great lengths, to keep their puppets under their control. Isolating them from all that is around them.
One day though the puppet will come to realize that this master is not what they want. Nor need in their lives. The puppet will break free, once it figures out when and how to. For a puppet always finds that they do indeed have a choice to be there or not. Once this happens the puppet master will go ballistic. In a rage of anger, hurt and sorrow for the loss of their puppet.
Little to the knowledge of the puppet master, Many of the puppets aren’t as controlled as the puppet master thinks.
Most of the puppets do not care about the puppet master, but care about the other puppets involved. So the poor puppet stays until there is a way that all the puppets can escape together.
I for one know I am not a puppet in the claws of a puppet master. I was once in the claws of the cruelest puppet master of all. I escaped with all I had, my life my family. I have found new life, new joys and happiness to search out. I no longer need a puppet master. I am the puppet master of my own life now.
I choose to be the puppet master. A kind helpful loving together puppet master. I have a full plate to worry about of my own. I have no time nor energy to control puppets. I lead if they follow they do it on their own choice. They are glad to follow to.
My life as been better since I kicked the puppet master to the curb. Now the puppet master is irate, still full of blame and hatred for my choice to leave.
Yet the puppet master still tries to bare hold on me. Then quickly realizes that it is a game that the puppet master will lose.
I sit and watch from the side lines. The puppet master still in all its might tries to control me. Yet knows there is no way to grasp me like before. There is nothing the puppet master can do to me. I have the control of my life.
I ignore the puppet master that once had hold of me. For now as I have said I am my own puppet master. I am untouchable, Unreadable, unpredictable. This the puppet master feared Thus the puppet master lost.
By C.T 2009
Bon Jovi Lyrics and videos with evenescence video and lyrics songs I love.
Kinda always like it used to be
Sippin' wine, killing time
Trying to solve life’s mysteries.
How’s your life, it’s been a while
God it’s good to see you smile
I see you reaching for your keys
Looking for a reason not to leave.
If you don’t know if you should stay
If you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just, breathe there’s no where else tonight we should be-
You wanna make a memory.
I dug up this old photograph
Look at all that hair we had
It’s bittersweet to hear you laugh
Your phone is ringing, I don’t wanna ask.
If you go now, I’ll understand
If you stay, hey, I got a plan
You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You could sing a melody to me
And I could write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory.
If you don’t know if you should stay
And you don’t say what’s on your mind
Baby just, breathe there’s no where else tonight we should be-
You wanna make a memory
You wanna steal a piece of time
You could sing a melody to me
And I could write a couple lines
You wanna make a memory
You wanna make a memory
This song was my husbands and my song, it just felt right, the video though sad, our hearts reach for it and we linger on every word.
He's gonna pay the rent
Tell me baby, is this as good as life is gonna get
It feels like there's a stranger who's standin' in these shoes
But, I know I can't lose me, 'cause then I'd be losin' you
Yea, yea, yea
Yea, yea, yea
I know I promised baby
I would be the one to make our dreams come true
I ain't too proud of all the struggles
And the hard times we've been through
When this cold world comes between us
Please tell me you'll be brave
'Cause I can realize the danger when forgiveness fades away
If you don't love me, lie to me
'Cause baby you're the one thing I believe
Let it all fall down around us, if that's what's meant to be
Right now if you don't love me baby, lie to me
Yea, yea, yea
Yea, yea, yea
Pour another cup of coffee
Babe I got something to say to you
I ain't got the winning ticket
Not the one that's gonna pull us through
I don't wanna die no more
No one said that it'd be easy
Let your old man take you home
But know that if you walk out on me that darlin'
I'd be gone
If you don't love me, lie to me
'Cause baby you're the one thing I believe
Let it all fall down around us
If that's what's meant to be
Right now if you can't love me baby, lie to me
Baby, I can take it
It's a bitch, life's a roller coaster ride
The ups and downs will make you scream sometime
It's hard believin' that the thrill is gone
But we got to go around again, so let's hold on
If you don't love me, lie to me
'Cause baby you're the one thing I believe
Let it all fall down around us
If that's what's meant to be
Right now if you can't love me baby
Go on lie to me
Go on lie to me
Yea, yea, yea, yea
Baby, I can take it
Yea, yea, yea, yea
C'mon lie to me
Yea, yea, yea, yea
This song Lie to me is a great song, I just love it there is no dought about it. They are just as good in concert as I was lucky enough to see them just a couple years ago.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me
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